We’ve all experienced some form of being nervous. However, there are those who are plagued with emotional and mental stress which causes anxiety attacks. There are cases when anxiety maybe mild and other cases anxiety maybe severe to the point of destroying families. Did you know that anxiety is linked with fear? Fear at no time is a good thing. This is why GOD has instructed us to not be anxious about anything. The causes for anxiety are numerous; from generational curses to watching a horror flick. All that is from end to end and inbetween can be a reason as to why you have become anxious in life. We like that over the top adrenaline rush but what happens when the adrenaline rush has overtaken you to the point that you are afraid of everyone and everything? The mental institutions are filled with those who suffer from anxiety and the makers of prescription medications are making big money from those who suffer from anxiety. However, there is a way to reverse the curse. GOD does not want you spinning your wheels, anxiety places you out of control and that’s not HIS desire for our lives. So stop biting your lip, your nails, stop pulling your hair, stop looking for doom and listening to all sorts of normal active sounds of life thinking that someone or something is after you.

 Scripture reference and definition

Proverbs 12:25

Luke 12:1-31

Philippians 4:6-7

Full of mental distress; eager; concerned, disturbed, apprehensive, fearful, uneasy.


I used to think that anger was an emotion one felt when someone caused them to be the very opposite of happy. Wrong and correct. There are two types of anger that I became acquainted with and was I ever surprised, especially since I was the subject of choice.

Let’s do the easy anger; there are times when something or someone will cause you to experience an emotion of anger. It’s a temporary feeling of displeasure, the matter is addressed and you get over it. Caution, do this quickly!

 The difficult anger is the anger that most people in this world are walking around filled with. It’s called the spirit of anger. Yes it’s possible to laugh and joke; yes it’s possible to enjoy yourself; yes it’s possible to seem like you are mild-mannered and cool.

I know this from experience. For 40 years I housed anger within me. I did not go around yelling at people just because; I did not walk around with an angry look upon my face. For the most part whenever you saw me I was known for smiling; I was known for being a very light-hearted and sweet person. With the exception towards those that I thought did not meet the rules that I thought were in existence for my generation or if you were older than my generation and came across as foolish to me. Then I was perceived as mean. The ratio of those that thought well of me versus those that did not was 95% versus 5%.

The anger that was inside of me was well hidden until-

As a career customer service professional I know tremendous; good; acceptable and bad customer service via the phone or in person. I’m sensitive to that. When I received acceptable or bad customer service it was not a pretty sight for the customer service agent who was assisting me. I was not there to review the performance of those employee’s; yet I took it upon myself to chastise the one who had to assist me. Now I’m not saying that we should accept bad service because we do pay their salaries, however the appropriate manner to handle the situation would have been to find the Manager; show the receipt because there is an ID number of who assisted you or a name. Inform the manager of the problem and keep it moving. Another instance is that I wanted perfection from my children. My eldest is and it’s on record that he is a genius and I expected him to breathe; move and speak his geniuses. Now mind you he is far more intelligent than I, yet I have years of experience on him and this is how I have to mold him. I was hard on my son, he was a great kid. However because of the inner city streets I did not want anything to take him off track and he caught the wrath that came from me too often. I have the greatest respect for my parents and because they are my parents whether I agree or disagree with what they are speaking to me about I listen and for the most part dismiss what they are saying because they don’t listen and make many assumptions as to what goes on with me and my family. My mother triggered the anger in me for the first time, she insulted my then husband and I was not going to stand there and take it. By the time I finished, I never heard her speak that negatively about him again. We were both wrong and I was in error more than she because she is my mother and the way I lashed out towards her may have cut my life span by 1 day. My dad did not move quickly enough I thought to help one of my brothers, I let loose on him. However, I think to this day that he thought I said something that I never said in my display of anger towards him. I never got so out of control that I would use profanity in their presence.

I have had so much abuse; disappointments; hurt and pain hurled into my life that I was filled with anger. The anger was for the most part well controlled; this is why I and no one else knew that I was filled with it. However, there were those days when the boiling pot pushed the lid off and the boiling water began to spurt out. I held on to everything; I had known one that I could talk with; I’m a CHRISTian and GOD’s Word does not make any sense to me about HIS joy everlasting and HIS peace. How come I have been saved for 15-24 years and I have not even come close to what GOD wants me to experience.

In 2003 everything came to a head; I was not well in my body; I was recovering from having a third stroke; I was blind; always tired; a newlywed and about to receive news from GOD that would help me to grow by leaps and bounds in the ways of GOD. Eleven months into my marriage 24 hours after I told my husband all that had happened in my first marriage; GOD began to show me that my present husband was now doing that very same thing. We had a horrific snow storm during that year; he was or is still a taxi cab driver that worked at night. I awoke early and he was not in our home. I waited 30 minutes and in my waiting I saw him having intercourse with another woman who resides in the apartment where we resided. GOD showed me a hotel, yet HE did not tell me the name of the hotel because HE knew what was in my heart and what was welling up with each second. I called every hotel that I knew that fit that description in my spirit and when I found that location he had already checked out. I had called his place of employment and was told that he checked out of the job during his regular time 6:30a he was offered a ride and he refused yet asked if he could take his cab home and was given permission. Four hours after he had completed his shift at work he finally stepped into our home. I was about 10 feet away from him and I instantly knew what he had been doing most of the night and that morning. He had planned to run into the apartment and leave again; he parked the car away from the apartment and lied that he was given a ride home. I immediately pushed him aside felt my way down the stairs and began to attack the other woman. Now remember I was blind, however she was a very mouthy and disrespectful person and the more she talked the more my hits landed; when it was all said and done according to the professionals I had beaten her within an inch of her life. I went after my husband next. I must have been coming out of the rage because I began to hear the Holy Spirit yelling STOP; STOP when I did stop I was compelled to call the police.

The police had come; I informed them of everything I was very truthful and crying uncontrollably. The police finally realized that I was blind and asked; “how were you able to do this damage”? I said she just kept on talking and I followed the voice. The hate that came from the family of the other woman was so intense that the police said keep it up and I’ll release her and take you all. I spent three months in the county jail facing attempted murder and looking at a possible 40 year sentence. For me and my age at that time it was a life sentence. I had Correctional Officers who had read my jacket either before or after I don’t know; what I do know is that they would ask me “Why are you in here, you don’t belong in here”? The inmates would walk up to me from time to time and ask me “Why are you in here? You don’t belong in here and you stick out; you are very noticeable”? I gained favor from GOD with the Correctional Officers and the inmates. I had inmates who saw the CHRIST in me and would speak with me about their life. I began attending Bible studies so that I can bath again in the Word of GOD. There were times when GOD’s power would come on me and no one not even those who came from the visiting church was familiar with GOD’s presence. A shift began to take place and I would find the inmates asking me questions about certain passages in the Bible. GOD was beginning to restore my vision to the point that I could read using trifocals and it was like drinking cool water on a very hot day. I got a book from the library in DOC called From Prison to Praise by Chuck Colson. I read the entire booklet in a few hours, it can be read in shorter time, however remember my vision is challenging. I remember saying with a pure heart, “GOD if you can do all these things for this man, I know you can do these things for me. I want to be changed, I’m tired of being the way that I am. LORD GOD, please change me”. GOD spoke into my spirit “get up and go into that cell close the door behind you; kneel and begin to pray; ask for what you want don’t hold anything back be truthful about everything and I will do it”. I got up went into the cell; closed the door and made sure it locked. Got that old tattered ugly wool blanket that is given to the inmates folded it enough or as much as I could so that my knees would not suffer more than they needed to. I got down on my knees and began. I remember asking for forgiveness of self; for my first ex-husband; the other women;  my present husband; the other woman;  my children; my parents; anyone in my family I offended; anyone whose path I crossed and was offensive to; anyone that I had an evil thought of; those guys (all brothers) that raped me when I was a wee one; those men who had thoughts of rape towards me; the guy who tried to rape me, yet I was a quick thinker, heavy handed and could run like the wind; my mother even when I was in her womb and my father and so on. I then began to ask GOD for deliverance from everything that is dark inside of me and give to me who HE is. Honestly I at that time had been saved for 24 years and had no idea what I wanted GOD to replace that evil with. HE did though.

I began to literally feel weights come off my neck; shoulder; back and lumbar. I raised myself up and immediately I knew to go over to Galatians 5:22-26 and I studied that and I continue to study that because I want to walk the more in Galatians 5:22-23. I also picked up a work book that someone left behind called Overcomers and I realized that I am an Overcomer. I thumbed through the book I was a wreck but I took it anyway. I said LORD I sure would like a better book new or one that is not so messed up as this, maybe one that where this book is messed up the next will cause this book to be complete. I kid you not after lights out GOD led me back to that area and there was another book and I grabbed it. The next day I looked at them both and together they were one book. 

Within that same week I was looking forward to Bible study and after class I informed the instructors that I would not be in class next week because I’m leaving soon. They asked me, “Do you know the day that you are leaving”? I said no; however view it as this; as a woman is in labor that is how I will be released and I believe that it will be this week. GOD released me the following day. 

Caution against anger:

Matthew 5:22 If you are angry with yourself or others you are subject to judgment.

Romans 12:19 never take revenge; leave that to the righteous anger of GOD. GOD promises that HE will take revenge; HE will pay them back.

Ephesians 4:26-27 don’t let sin control you; don’t let the sun go down and you are still angry. Anger gives the devil ammunition to destroy you.


Some take this to be a dirty word. But it’s not; it’s a wonderful word when you open your mind to all of its possibilities. Adoption is a wonderful thing to happen to a family who for whatever reason is unable to have a fruit of a child from their own body/bodies. Adoption is wonderful when a child has been mistreated and a loving family chooses that child to become their very own. Giving to that child all the love, care and protection; to meet the child’s need. The blend can be so awesome that the child begins to take on the look of the family and unless those who are unaware are told that the child was adopted; no one would have ever known.

Well for the sinner it’s no different. When JESUS finds us and we accept HIS gift of salvation; we leave the hate and mistreatment of our father the devil and step into a wonderful relationship with our true and first FATHER that we were traded from; GOD our  Creator and our big brother JESUS. We begin to tell people that we are saved not knowing really what that all entails. JESUS on the other hand like the big brother that HE is; begins to protect you and will send HIS teacher to you who is the Holy Spirit. As you grow up in this family called CHRISTians you begin to acquire what you are mature enough to walk with. How do you acquire what is yours and how do you become mature enough to receive? You must read the Word of GOD. You will not know who you are and what you are to have and what you can accomplish if you don’t know what your DADDY and BIG BROTHER have provided for you. Then you must learn to ask for what it is that you need but it must truly be a need and not a want. GOD has met all of our needs and it’s up to you to learn just what your basic needs are and what your wants are. The debts that you have accumulated because of your wants; you may want to ask GOD to teach you how to discipline you in your finances. The Word of GOD is filled with scriptures regarding finances, money and wealth. I myself think that the very best illustrator for wealth is King Solomon because when he prayed to GOD about how to establish his earthly kingdom; he did not ask for trivial things that would be taken away by time. King Solomon asked for wisdom and when you have wisdom you can unlock the treasury vault. He did not have to play lotto or gamble; he did not have to swindle anyone, he did not have to work. GOD taught him how to increase his income with the ideas that HE gave to King Solomon. Though King Solomon went coo-coo for coco puffs he was and is still considered to have been the wisest human to have ever lived. GOD said in HIS Word that no human will be that wise again. But GOD did not say that HE would not make humans wise. We are encouraged to ask for wisdom often. Also adoption is wonderful because it tells the world that though you’re DNA and your blood may not be that of your family; you are in right standing of all that the family has to offer; nothing left out as if you did have the same DNA and blood line. So if you are from a poor family and the only inheritance is a record collection from the 1920’s not scratched and a will is drawn up; you are most likely to be named the heir of those records. (Unfortunately most poor or unwise people will not understand that a collection of records or just one record from the 1920’s in perfect to good condition is wealth) If you are the only survivor of that family and there is no will everything left from the deceased belongs to you without question. It’s no different when we come to JESUS in our adoption. We inherit all that HE left for use upon HIS death; no questions asked because the will is designed for the children of GOD who are living on earth and in heaven. The will is never ending. On earth you are to inherit health, wisdom, victory, truth, anointing, power, courage, the right to speak to GOD for yourself at anytime; protection and soooooooooooo much more. In heaven you inherit a mansion and more. See we don’t have to wait to get anything in the will of GOD all we have to do is be adopted, read the Word to know who we are and what we are to do; be obedient and above all love.

When you are questioned about your position in the family be it earthly or heavenly a good scripture to know is the one where the validity of being a Jew who are GOD’s chosen and being a Gentile, everyone else has any weight.

 Scripture reference and definition

Romans 2:28-29; 8:15, 23; 9:4

Galatians 4:5-7

Ephesians 1:1-14

Adopt: to choose or take as one’s own; make one’s own by selection; to take and rear as one’s own child, specifically by a formal legal act. (What JESUS did was formal and legal)

Admit and Forget

“Forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before.” Philippians 3:13

Forgetting doesn’t mean losing awareness of the event. But from the standpoint in which JESUS intended, it means releasing the pain from the memory. Allowing all those unsettled issues that keep holding you prisoner, to be broken by the power of GOD. It is essential that we forgive those who hurt us. If you did the hurting, ask GOD to forgive you, HE will. Then ask the person that you hurt to forgive you. When you ask the person you hurt for forgiveness; that person may not want to forgive you, that’s okay. Because he/she does not have to forgive you, the fact that you made the effort is recorded in GOD’s book. Allow GOD’s transforming power to heal your troubled emotions and cut the cord between you and your past.

GOD has a wonderful future for you, but you can’t reach for it until you disconnect from the past.


This is a word that has become very important to anyone who has been arrested and charged with a crime. They go before a Judge or Judge and jury; after it’s all been said the person charged with an offense is waiting to hear two simple words. Not Guilty which means acquitted. The happiness and feeling that comes from the prosecuted is one of relief; be they guilty or not. Some promise never to do anything so stupid again and some just think that they got away with a crime because of their being so smart. Those that have learned their lessons are the ones who came to realize that they escaped a judgment that would destroy their lives and family for life. They came too close to possibilities of fighting for their lives; to live another day in a violent penal institution. To escape being raped and the many other torturous activities that goes on in prison.

There are many in this world that do not understand or do not know that JESUS took on the crimes of this entire world. HE took on the guilt of every person born before HIMSELF, during HIS life as a human and for those of us who would be born after HIS death. I’m awestruck when I think about that very first baby that was birthed just seconds after JESUS died on the cross and he/she if taught about what JESUS had done for him/her and he/she accepted that belief that he/she would be acquitted. I look forward to meeting the very first baby born after JESUS death who accepted JESUS as his/her SAVIOR. I also look forward to meeting the very last male/female that accepted the verdict of acquitted before JESUS returns and takes HIS bride from this earth as we know it.

However, it pains my heart to know that people choose to discount what JESUS did for this world. The sins of this world have people going to hell on a rollercoaster without breaks and the rails are greased with thick heavy oil.

Let me explain what it was like for JESUS when HE was arrested. If it helps; close your eyes and think.

JESUS a man who spoke only love; who fed the hungry; who healed the sick; who delivered men/women from demonic influence (possession); who provided or restored sight to the blind; who created appendages or limbs to those who had none; who brought the dead back to life. Why on earth would you want to see HIM dead?

JESUS was arrested and led to the courts during the night. This was unjust because this was during hours when court was not in session during normal business hours. HE had no attorney. The courts paid people to lie on HIM and the people could not even do that well. They transported HIM to another court to be tried (extradited) and that too failed. So they sent HIM back to the first court to be judged. The Judge refused to say that HE was guilty of any crime and that he wanted nothing to do with HIS being sentenced for a crime. The onlookers wanted the very worse criminal who was serving time to be released and for JESUS to accept the sentence that was placed on the other prisoner as well as be charged with HIS own crimes. The prisoner was released and JESUS was sentenced to death. Now just like today we have the death penalty as well; we use a lethal injection or gas to kill a prisoner. Then, they used stoning or crucifixion to kill their guilty of the most heinous of crimes. They beat HIM until HIS flesh was hanging from HIS bones. They stuck a crown of thorns around HIS entire head; the blood pouring down into HIS face blinding HIS sight just as we are when things get into our eyes. They removed all of HIS clothing; pulled his beard from HIS face with their hands and spit on HIM. They slapped HIM and continued to hit HIM in HIS open bleeding wounds. HE was without sleep or rest or food and drink. People made fun of HIM calling HIM all sort of names and accusing HIM to be something HE was not. HE was insulted and a royal robe the finest of the finest was placed on HIS body. This was to contradict HIS position as King. HE was paraded through the streets to have more accusations hurled at HIM. From HIS exhausted body after HE collapsed while carrying HIS own cross to the death sight. A man was chosen to take the cross for HIM. The robe was then removed; HE was completely naked; no loin cloth was on HIS body. These pictures we see of JESUS hanging on the cross are not accurate; they don’t depict the horror for which HE was succumbed to. People continued to insult HIM while HE was hanging on the cross; HE said that HE was thirsty and a soldier tried to give HIM urine to drink. One of the inmates who were being crucified with HIM sneered at HIM while the other asked for forgiveness. During all this torture JESUS kept the people who believed in HIM before HE came to earth as a human on HIS mind; HE kept those who believed in HIM during that time on HIS mind and HE kept people who were not yet born on HIS mind. Praying for us all. Now I believe that it was not the torture or HIS weaken body that caused HIM to die; I believe that it was HIS loneliness of being without HIS FATHER for the very first time ever. GOD had to finally turn away from HIS SON because HE saw the filth of sin all over HIS being and GOD cannot look on sin. This is why JESUS cried out asking why HIS FATHER; HIS GOD why did HE leave HIM. JESUS asked GOD to forgive because we don’t know what it is we are thinking; saying; believing; doing then HE stopped breathing and was pronounced dead.

JESUS the better Perry Mason or Matlock got us acquitted of all charges. But if we don’t accept being acquitted then we will suffer the punishment. But here is the beauty; though some of us will be found guilty of our crimes in the natural and are sent to prison. Freedom can be found their; you maybe behind cinderblocks, bricks and cold steel. Trying to keep from being raped witnessing the animalistic violence and the homosexual activities that is a part of the everyday life of prison. But if you allow JESUS into your heart; confess HIM; pray and saturate yourself in HIS Word; you will find that you will be untouched by the surroundings of prison. There is a difference between the jailhouse Jesus and the real JESUS. The jailhouse Jesus is discovered in prison and left there when you are released. The real JESUS discovers you and releases you in prison; you maybe locked up but you are free.

However, wouldn’t it be so much better to have JESUS to discover you now? You are an inmate and don’t know it. You are imprisoned by sin and have been found guilty. You are on death row.

Come to JESUS; let HIM speak to the JUDGE on your behalf. HE will win the case, HE has not lost one; HE is an undefeated attorney yet HE still can accept more clients; HE can make every meeting and accepts every call. HIS phone number is John 3:16 and HIS office is your heart.

DEFINITION and Scripture Reference

To relieve from a charge of fault or crime; declare not guilty; to release or discharge from an obligation; to settle or satisfy a debt or obligation.  

Matthew 26:47-75; 27:1-54

Mark 14:43-72; 15:1-39

Luke 22:47-71; 23:1-47

John 18:1-49; 19:1-37

Psalm 22

Habakkuk 1:13


We all want to be accepted by our family; peers; co-workers and the list goes on. However you can do everything correct and not be accepted as you want to be. You can also do everything wrong and still left out in the cold. Acceptance is an outward showing of approval; favorable reception and we all long for this. Sometimes we find ourselves doing or saying things that normally we would not just to fit in and be accepted.

Well I’ve got some great news GOD accepted you long before HE spoke “Let there be light” and light is.
Unfortunately we live in a time when children are giving birth to children and they have no clue at all how to be a parent. There are also those whose parents were of mature age but for whatever reason they too abandoned you.

We are All accepted by GOD.
Psalm 27:10 Even if my mother and father abandon me, The LORD will hold me close.

Romans 5:1-2 We have been made right in GOD’s sight by faith in HIS SON, JESUS. We have peace with GOD because of what JESUS CHRIST our LORD has done for us. Because of our faith, JESUS has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing GOD’s glory.

Romans 8:39 There is NOTHING in all creation that will ever be able to separate me; you or us from the love of GOD that is revealed in CHRIST JESUS our LORD.

Abuse is Torture

A few years ago when I was employed; I was speaking with a young woman who was newly married. I’ve known her for a good while. She’s gorgeous outwardly and inwardly her character reflects her outward beauty. I began to notice that every now and then she would show up with injuries. One day I saw her moving in a manner that looked serious; I asked her what was wrong. She informed me that she had cracked ribs and that it was due to her opening up a roll of those frozen dough pastries that you bake in the oven. You know the kind that you smack against something so that the tube pops open. Instantly I knew that the story was goofy but I focused more on her being at work injured than I did with that crazy story she handed me. Later that day the Holy Spirit had informed me that she is the victim of spousal abuse. I began to realize that all types of women are victims of abuse. Strong minded/willed; weak minded/willed; mature or immature; educated or illiterate; young; middle age or seasoned. She like me is intelligent and strong minded yet she became the victim of abuse. It’s an embarrassment to the victim. The victim is abused by another and then abuses themselves by lying about the abuse. It’s an ongoing evil process that seems to never end. Throughout the Bible you will find abuse from Genesis to Revelation. It’s nothing new and because we are victims of this offense we must come to a place of realization that we are not alone. Others have gone through this torture as well. Do you realize that there is one in every home that is the victim of abuse? You yourself know at least one person who is either abused or is an abuser; yet you are unaware. If we really look with our eyes and listen we will recognize the abuser and the victim.

The word abuse is found in the Bible under such related words as forgiveness; drugs; struggles; family; hope and suffering.

Because I’m an abuse survivor and former abuser; I know that abuse comes from a very dark place and is a curse that is passed on from generation to generation. As well as a characteristic that is transferred to another whom has been the victim of abuse.

So how do we rid ourselves of abuse? Well it’s not easy and it requires faith on our part. It’s often times a characteristic that can be overcome by sheer will power; we must surrender ourselves over to GOD and allow HIM to deliver us from this torture that holds us prisoner to ourselves and others.

1.  We must ask GOD to forgive us then forgive ourselves.

2. We must repent from actively practicing abuse to ourselves and others. Abuse begins in our thoughts then our hearts then in action. Speak from your mouth to GOD what abusive thoughts you are having. Tell someone that you sincerely trust that you are having these thoughts that you know will not judge you.

3. Turn to the Word of GOD and speak from your mouth what GOD’s Word is saying. This will cause the enemy to flee from you when you bring his motives into the light. You can’t win this battle with just thoughts.

4. Ask your victims to forgive you. They do not have to forgive you though it will be wonderful. Understand that the decision to forgive you is their choice. Your asking for forgiveness will release you. Their forgiving you will release them.

5.  Don’t allow the enemy to keep taunting you about your past. Let him know about his past and future. He has no hope; you do.

6. Once you know that abuse is no longer a temptation for you do what you can to help those who want to be free from abuse or and those who have been abused. You know for yourself that those who abuse have been abused.

7.  Share with others how you had been abused and what the results were. People can relate to those they know have had the same experience as themselves.                      

Every type of abuse that you have or have not experienced is found in the definition of just those two words I provided below.

Scripture reference & definition:

Sexual abuse; Judges 19:25

Suicide; 1 Samuel 31:4; 1 Chronicles 10:4

Assault; Acts 14:5

Manipulation; 1 Corinthians 9:18

Abuse: To use wrongly or improperly; misuse one’s authority. To treat in a harmful, injurious, or offensive way. To speak insultingly, harshly, and unjustly to or about; revile; malign.

Manipulate: To manage or influence skillfully, especially in an unfair manner.


We live in an abusive world. We are consumed with abusive language; thoughts; sights; hearts and actions towards others. We are not going to escape abuse. However, there is a difference in which abuse we will be willing to accept.

When we are without GOD void of love; kindness and mercy the abuse we hurl towards each other and ourselves are evident.

Wrongly or improperly misuse of authority; treat in a harmful, injurious, or offensive way; speak insultingly, harshly, and unjustly to or about. To commit sexual assault on another or self *(self = masturbation); to deceive or mislead; harsh or coarse insulting language.

This is the action abuse that we walk away from once we come into the full knowledge of JESUS; yet we will become victims of abuse because of our love and stand for righteousness in and of JESUS.

Let’s view and think about a few scriptures; let’s see how we fit and what we will do to leave or accept abuse from now on. I will provide definitions to words because we miss the mark by not understanding vocabulary. I will keep it simple.

“Assuredly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the sons of men, and whatever blasphemies they may utter; but he who blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is subject to eternal condemnation” Mark 3:28-29 

Blaspheme = speak evil; to slander another person’s character.

 We do this daily don’t we? We think that it’s some super duper bad thing that we try to stay away from when it comes to the Holy Ghost/Spirit. Though it is; how do you plan to stay away from doing this when it comes to the Holy Spirit when you can’t stop with people and yourself? The best thing to hope for is this; that you’ve never spoken about the Holy Spirit at all because this is such a serious crime. It’s so serious that most non-believers know enough in their hearts not to blaspheme the Holy Spirit. The problem is they don’t know what blaspheme is. This is why the question is so important. Have I blasphemed the Holy Spirit? I say and I’m not GOD so don’t live by what I’m going to write but I hope that if anyone has done this terrible thing that we were so very ignorant that when we do come to GOD for forgiveness we will be forgiven just once. I want to believe that GOD will give those who are truly repentant of this sin a onetime only free pass.  Notice how clear this rule is; all sins will be forgiven even the blasphemies spoken.

However; anyone who speaks evil of or slanders the character of the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven but condemned. This is harsh! So this is why I’m hoping even if I’m wrong that GOD will give us a onetime free pass when we are truly repentant if we have done this unforgivable crime. I would think that if HE really did not; if HE really could care less; if HE really has no love or mercy towards us that we might as well chuck it all and forget about ever getting into heaven and living a life on earth full of the promises HE has given us. Because we are on death row and the destination is hell.

Let’s take a look at what Saul/Paul did before he came into the knowledge of JESUS.

For you have heard of my former conduct in Judaism, how I persecuted the church of God beyond measure and tried to destroy it. Gal. 1:13

Saul was an abuser. He persecuted; CHRISTians so greatly that he tried to destroy the church that is truly within the heart of man. Saul tried to destroy the faith of man. Saul used every definition known to man to accomplish his goal. 

Persecute = to pursue with harassing treatment; to annoy or trouble persistently.

Destroy = to reduce to useless fragments, form, or remains, as by rending, burning, or dissolving; injure beyond repair or renewal; demolish; ruin; annihilate. Extinguish; kill; render ineffective; nullify; invalidate or defeat.  

Saul found out that he could not complete his abuse and he found himself being abused as Paul because he accepted JESUS.

Man is proud, knowing nothing, but is obsessed with disputes and arguments over words, from which come envy, strife, reviling, evil suspicions, constant friction useless wrangling of men of corrupt minds and destitute of the truth, who suppose that godliness is a means of gain. From such withdraw yourself. 1 Tim. 6:4-5 

Reviling = loud; noisy

Wrangling = argumentative

 It amazes me when I’m out and about how the most ignorant [lacking in knowledge or training; unlearned. Lacking of knowledge; information of a particular subject or fact; uninformed; unaware.]

People have so much to say. They don’t know what they are talking about because most to all of the information that they are trying to convince another of is inaccurate. The less they know the louder they are. If you don’t agree with what is being said then an argument begins. This is abuse of the mind; no brain should be void of vital information; read. This is abuse to the ears; all this garbage is being placed in the hearing. This is abuse to the mouth; want to know who a person is; listen to a person speak.

Moses, a Hebrew born into slavery; hid from death by his parents; found by royalty; lived a royal life; well educated. Decided to walk away from the palace and put on slavery which brings abuse. He also accepted another abuse because of his faith in the true and living GOD.

Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the temporary passing pleasures of sin, esteeming the reviling because of reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasures in Egypt; for he looked to the reward. Heb.11:25-26

Would you be willing to do this? Are you willing to walk away from what you are experiencing in your life to suffer the abuse all true CHRISTians suffer?

Therefore let us go forth to HIM, outside the camp, bearing HIS reproach. Heb. 13:13 

Reproach = find fault, to discredit; disapproval; disgrace.

 Are you willing to go forward to JESUS knowing that in the sight of people you will be disgraced because of JESUS and your faith?

If you are insulted or reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part HE is blasphemed, but on your part HE is glorified. 1 Peter 4:14

I find this to be a comfort because I’m blessed due to JESUS being glorified because of my faith in HIM.

Hopefully the recognition of abuse of man towards self and others has been made clear; why it’s done and how it’s done. Now you know that abuse is not one dimensional; stop believing that abuse is only in the concept of child abuse or domestic abuse. Take notice of abuse from all around us and how you play apart.

Are you ready to accept the abuse CHRISTians endure for JESUS?


Abram aka Abraham

We all know the wonderful fact of Abraham. But do you know Abram?
In our pre-christian walk we think that we are not worthy to have GOD care about us. We have done too (tooo, toooo, tooooo) many things to be forgiven of, frankly we can’t bring ourselves to forgive ourselves. Well let me introduce you to a man that is found in the Hall of Faith, a Hero, the Father of Faith and the screw up that got it right.
Abram lived among his daddy’s [Terah is his name] home with all the other Terahetts, brothers, cousins, uncles, aunts, baker and the candle stick maker along with Sarai his wife.
After the death of Terah Abram heard the voice of GOD telling him to hit the road and to leave all of the relatives he knew, loved and argued with behind with the exception of his wife of course.
Now during this great move I would suppose Lot asked where in the world was Abram and Sarai going to? It’s for certain that Abram told Lot the truth “I don’t know” but you can’t go.
Lot true to form of his name which means [Pebble] he came along anyway. Who asked Lot to come along? We must be careful with pebbles; they can sometimes get into your shoe and cause you to limp. Pebbles can be used to gamble with as dice. Pebbles can also be used to throw and cause harm. Though we often times use pebbles as vase, pot or landscape decorations, with them is always a hint of danger.
Now Abram was a punk from the word go. He must have lived a sheltered life because when he got into another neighborhood [The hood] he hid behind his wife Sarai. Twice Abram lied to save his own skin before he came to the end of himself. Real men don’t hide behind their women, they protect them.
Abram finally got enough and GOD said now you’ll be known as Abraham. This man fought battles instead of running from them. He tithed. He had a wee bit more of himself left in him and fathered the nation of Ishmaelite’s the nation of flesh. Abraham and Sarah finally had their child of promise Isaac born 14 years after Ishmael.
More than likely there are some points that I did not mention, but I learned some years ago to always leave them wanting more. So go on over to the most famous book on the planet; open up Genesis chapter 11 and find out more. I promise you that you will see that being a screw up; is not the end of the world. If HE did it for Abram (exalted father) who later became Abraham (father of the faith and many nations) surely he will do it for you.


Contempt; despise; detest; disgust; hate; loathe; mean; vile; worthless.

These are just a few choice words that have the same meaning as abhor.

These are very strong words and they are very strong emotions to have against a person. Yet in the everyday hearing of a person’s vocabulary; these words are spoken often. They are as casual as hello. But do you know that when you speak these words you invoke a lifelong hurt within an individual that is really hard to shake off. Most of those words above you may not use but the most common words that are used in a daily vocabulary is hate; loathe; mean and worthless. I’ve heard kids tell their parents that they hate them; just because they were not allowed to do something that they wanted to do. This to me is very hurtful. I remember when I was a wee lass my mother told me that she hated me; it nearly destroyed me as a person. But it also taught me how to fight mentally. I was 41 when GOD delivered me from that pain, that’s a long time to hurt. Then I remember when my son was a young teen; maybe 13-15 when I read his diary and came across a page that read “I hate my mother”. I called my ex-husband crying uncontrollably to him about what our son wrote. He calmed me down but that thought to this day is still there though I no longer am a prisoner to the pain. I still sometime wonder what did I do to make him write that or does he still hate me. I spoke to my son a few years ago and let him know that when he was a kid I read that in his diary. He explained that he never has hated me and that is just something that kids say when their parents cause them to be angry. I tried to explain to him that words kill. It’s very hard; if ever for a person to survive words. Words destroy the psyche and the emotions. Think about the words that have been hurled towards you and how they have affected your life. So it is important that we must first come to JESUS. Renew the mind which will then clean the heart which will then change the vocabulary.

Abhor what is evil; cling to what is good. Romans 12:9

JESUS has been hated since it was publicized about HIS birth and believe it or not HE is still hated among those who don’t even believe in HIM. So I would like to know this; if you don’t believe in something or someone how is it possible to have contempt for HIM? I guess that means that you really do believe that JESUS is who HE is.

SON of Man that HE must suffer many things and be treated with contempt? Mark 9:12

Not only is this sad but it has a hint of humor. How would you like to be hated; treated unjustly yet given an extremely expensive gift and beautiful gift? A gift so awesome that people fight or gamble for it.

Then Herod, with his men of war, treated HIM with contempt and mocked HIM, arrayed HIM in a gorgeous robe, and sent HIM back to Pilate.

Luke 23:11

Here is a good lesson to learn; stop being so judgmental towards another.

Why do you show contempt for your brother? For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of CHRIST. Romans 14:10

Yuk mouth; profanity; speaking the opposite of what GOD has said about you, others and circumstances.

“His speech contemptible.” 2 Corinthians 10:10